awake

Sleeping Phoniex’s

zamtheta — Wed, 16 May 2007 04:23:56 +0000

Ungu has been running through crystal dimensions. As matter of fact this is a deep crystal tunnel. Deeply, fusioned by a thousands of his reflexions. Though, Ungu keeps running thru thoroughly, ungu feels it in this frame, time is running faster. But, at another frame, time runs slower. When ungu pay attention surround him, automatically he increases a mount of his conciousness, then time runs slower, but when he didn’t pay attention at all, time runs faster.

It’s seems like sinus wave, when his mind at betha level it created more rotation at one second, one rotation made one phantom time. When He found himself at theta level he felt time runs slower, his thought was pulled into dreaming-zone, his perceptions taught him as This’s a realness-zone.

Though, at this rate he even can’t tell different between realness and phantomness, yet he knows for sure all things that he can perceive is realness, but in this phantomness-zone he even can still perceive those, what is the big deal then? “Only minds that has a life, only minds” Ungu jump to conclusion. When he found out he woke up in the morning, his thought taught him that was a dream, how dare my thought judge by his self-centered, even my thought doesn’t aware what is different between those, then how myself can judge by the same way this’s a realness-zone.

“when I’ve every things, every sensation I called them realness, when I wake up in the morning, then realize every things and every sensation was disappeared. I could call them a phantomness, but how long I’ll have all these sensations and things, if I lost ‘em can I judge this as a phantomness-zone!” ungu flurried.

Meanwhile, he doesn’t aware every particles at universe has seen him as they have their own consciousness. Who’s watch who, who’s think who, who’s perceive who, who’s in who… ah, how perfect it’s in this perceive-zones there’s no inferior and neither is superior, all things is a realness as a phantomness at once, every things owning their gestlat-dimension. Everything embracing their contradictions. “kukuruyuuuuk” [a sound of thing], “oh, just a dream! Ok that made clear no more ungu fairy tales before bedtime” said ungu.

A SHADOW RING OF HEAVEN

zamtheta — Wed, 25 Apr 2007 03:27:12 +0000

Ungu has been running through crystal dimensions. As matter of fact this is a deep crystal tunnel. Deeply, fusioned with a thousands of his reflexions. Ungu keeps running thru, yet he doesn’t have a clue what stories would tell him forward. His violet body glowing out, these rays be permeated to every inch crystal wall. The tunnel be fraught with violet air, ungu flows like a stream. Crsytal wall shares it light, its more like drizzle light on stream. These composures snatched his soul. Apparently, he is not aware as immense violet ray started to vibrate a blue ring at his minimus. These rays take a part to his body, they became crystal. ‘what ! how its supposed to be happened, density of light became matter’ ungu astonished, while trying to pull out every crystals that trying consume himself. ‘shoot! What’s that? A-annother light!’ now, multiply enigma just started. Ungu had thought its just me by myself, the only one who’s thru this tunnel, yet there’s another light, a blue light. Ungu started flashing to approach that blue light.

‘say!, im biru’ a blue-light reveals herself. Ungu cant conceal his exicted, both of them now throwing light upon each other. Crowded by super-enormous light. ‘ah, I wish time just stopped from now on’ ungu made a plea secretly. ‘wusssh!’ biru blew ungu with another light. Ungu wake up from his wish then manage to counter. They throwing light along their journey, now this tunnel became pipe-light crowded by a thousands paint of color, they ride on the wind of heaven. ‘time please be my sides made this eternal !’ another ungu’s secretly hope. ‘ungu, looks at these fingers!’ biru show up her hand, ungu managed to take a looking thoroughly. As ungu became more closer to her, his light melting into biru light, they are combining their lights. They multiplied their color to be one, ‘i-I cant breath, this denser mist!’ ungu trying step back to release himself from density air, but at this rate his soul insisted to combine his color into blue. In that case ungu inhale his long breath, its more like he will be dipping into sea.

‘ungu! Looks there’s violet ring at my minimus that’s the same as yours, red at my ring-finger, green for middle finger, yellow for index finger, and black for thumb’ biru smiled when she pays attention on her beautiful rings. ‘biru, I have the same as yours! But Blue-ring at my minimus’ ungu replied. ‘I love all of these’ biru yelled, ungu could see her enthusiastic, hope, and so on.

Suddenly, the blue-rings at ungu’s minimus vibrating strongly. Mist around him increasing it number. But he tried to conceal what just happened, time is running by now, ungu can feel it. Time is running… ‘ungu looks! There’s a divarication, what should we choose this one or that one?’ biru yelled. ‘if you have to make a choice between love n friendship, then what will you?’ biru break an atmosphere with her question. ‘I’ll be on love side, but in that case she doesn’t love me. I’ll be on friendship side for her’ ungu tried to convince himself. Now, both of them drowned into sea of silence, both of ‘em dipping into each owning-perception’s, they thought about themselves.

‘biru tell me, how’d you felt ? did one of your fingers led you to the one of these divarication?’ ungu made a question. His hearts just crumpled, messy. Its more like he cant grab a worth thing on his palm then by that time his hand capsized at once time. There’s no need to say, he even can’t feel himself. Biru felt how messed this situation, as a chain-link-heart she even can’t feel herself. Silence has duplicated it body, more and more, misty air show ‘em their territory.

‘ungu let’s thru a friendship, I believed friendship tunnel more light, and enjoyable. What you say?’ Biru made offered. ‘i-I don’t know it flurried me. As along of our journey we made crystal wall been sparkling. I have been convincing my self, my ring led me to love tunnel’ ungu replied. Ungu turn back into his silence, alternately a blue-ring flicker between his ring-finger to his minimus. But its stop at his minimus for last. By that time ungu realized his intuive power has made a sign for this enigma, a reason why his blue-ring at his minimus, that all a divination for a friendship.

‘biru, I appreciated for all your resolution’ ungu managed to smile for this an unexpected situation. All memories summoned at once time up in the air. A misty air dominated remain no room for both of ‘em to breath. ‘This immense light has been created by our emotion as a result it’s became immense of crystal, now it has been taking a part to my body. That’s yours! I brought your in myself, sigh’ ungu thought about this situation, still ungu has decided to thru this with smile, the only way that wont make it worse, besides he thinks It may be his last smile for her, the one worthy light in his life. When he yearns for her, he can see a blue lightly sky, instead. This’s the one of puzzle fragments from her, I wondered if I’d another fragments, I wish I had collected all of fragments, combined them into one big picture, to reveal chaotic mystery, his intuive power talks to him.

SHADOWS of CRYSTAL WALLS

zamtheta — Mon, 02 Apr 2007 06:12:16 +0000

Ungu has been running through crystal dimensions. As matter of fact this is a deep crystal tunnel. Deeply, fusioned by a thousands of his reflexions. Though, Ungu keeps running thru thoroughly, shadows ran after shadows as this’s a never end race of alternately. Every angles shows up his reflections remain no answer to solve an ancient enigma about why he should keep passing on every single step in this crystal dimensions. ‘Lemme out!’ ungu tails spin on his enormous emotions, as negative atmosphere summoned his past memories from graveyard. Plus, shadows of him mocked behind crystal walls.

‘Prakk’ ungu barely cant stand for this, he keeps punching all walls while he passes thru. Wishing a thousands reflection has been vanished all for forever, instead vanished, its revived one by one. Looks like these nightmares never come to end. Ungu pursues his shadows with all shadows behind pursued him.‘Samsara’ a kind of repetition behaviors with emotion patern. Where sweetness of sugar resembles to positive emotion,Where bitterness of coffee resembles to negative emotion,

‘gimme a break! I’ll blow out this samsara in my head’ Ungu run after his shadows, by that time his shadows try running after him, like a wholeness onion skins, every layers are combined to one point make it as a matter.‘stop pursue this shadows’ emotion voices spelled in his heart.‘if ya stop right now ! definitely, you will never come to end of this tunnel’ logical voices spelled in his heart.Ungu has been running without known for sure why he should running, and keeps wishing without known for sure why he should wish for something he never know’Trapped in his minds, clueless. At least, he decided to sit for a while to hear into his inner voices. The something riot, two sides riot! Much than he thought before.His heart is fighting blame one to each other! For each perception.Ungu came into his logic voices, then found out its right from this viewpoint.Ungu came into his emotion voices, then found out its right from this viewpoint.There’s no opposite for an event, but all are oneness perception, a wholeness.

Where sweetness of sugar resembles to positive emotion,Where bitterness of coffe resembles to negative emotion, Instead looks upon crystall walls, try to knows patern behind walls. ‘I’ll fusion these opposite perceptions, lets see what the heck of happen by now!’Ungu try to solve this clueless questions.

Chaotic slowly reveal his true face, that’s an orderliness.Now, the walls have been falling down. One by one crystal walls shattered into pieces from the end passed to where ungu has been standing up. One meter from ungu there is another ungu was formed by vanished crystal walls. A spitting image of himself, Both ungu have been being drown by silence, as they are not surprised by each other, as both of them are shadows. Illusions dimension has been disappearred, changed into gestalt dimensions. His thoughts teach him about reflection as a result ungu faces another ungu as it’s himself. ‘who’s the shadows now!!’ said ungu while faced another ungu, wondered if The thing in front of him has the same thought. ‘But, why? These composure atmospheres overwhelming, lingering around that shadow!?’ but, why the shadows has never been influenced by crystal walls while my self was suffered for walls tortures and ready revived for another torments?’

‘Gimme the answers!’ ungu screamed, But no one to ask, clueless as its flawless at once. No need for answered, there’s no space for question that running over orderliness, Everything has solved its own chaotic like it’s a solver itself. Silent hill, his five senses have been sealed, frozen, speechless in this gesltalt dimension. But intuition leds him to trust his heart in this blindness senses zone.‘im a shadow!’ ungu jump to conclusion. Ungu tried collecting all his wounds, the only way to regain his conciouness.No used at all. Instead, slowly but sure one by one his wounds are fading away.As everything never occurred, his past memories blurred at one times.‘this’s emptiness zones, I even couldn’t embrace my pains! A thing that I avoided, while I ran thru crystal tunnel. I’d become a shadow! What’s this? everything became the shadows all things and sensation melt into one, I’d merged into another shadow while im approaching them’

Ungu searching everything that he had, everything belongs to hims. But, since he is a shadow now, he’d to release them with all of sincerity pleased or not. Now, his five senses spechless, sealed. Shadow, shadow, shadow, shadow, shadow, shadow, shadow, shadow, shadow.Senses dipped into sea of emptiness, senses was submissive in this zones, all five senses surrender, then fusion their powers became one sense trust heart to lead ‘em with its intuitive powers.

Only shadow could explain the meaning of illusionOnly shadow could explain the meaning of realness Phoniex now grasped his one endless breath Float by great power in the skyRide on the wind of universe consciousness
Phoenix came at an other side of the crystal walls with a bright smileAs matters of fact ungu still passing thru crystal tunnel, all his shadows pursued him by now, a dazzling point spreading lights in front of ungu, all shadows hide their presence behind ungu, At another side ungu saw phoniex with high speed lookin’ at him.

Disaat gerbang hati mentransedensi ruang dan waktu, Menahan putaran ruang dan waktu, Meleburkan semuanya ke dalam satu wadah yang tak terdeteksi indera. Kini, saatnya intuisi mengepakkan sayapnya, Menunjukkan kebebasannya, mengalir menuju lembah kesadaran, Akan hakekat yang satu, dimana chaos demi chaos terselesaikan, Dimana chaos demi chaos terkendalikan, Lembah Utopia yang kini sedang dituju oleh cahaya akalIndera-indera membisu karena sang operator telah beralih pada kemudi hati, Mungkin ini titik bifurkasi dari sistem yang tertutup, Vacuum nan senatiasa diluap-luapkan di waktu yang
lima, Mensimulakrum dari alam bawah sadar, quantum telah terjadi, Turbulensi pemikiran, pemborosan energi, penipuan energi, telah sirna. Meninggalkan suatu stabilitas keteraturan tanpa memerlukan tanya dan jawab, Pemahaman akan makna di post-time dan post-place, Terjadilah suatu pemahaman arti kehidupan, metamorfosa melalui intuisi. The end